Miss you...

It's been a crazy time the past few weeks my friends...

Sorry that I haven't been updating my blog as I should. (I've already been reprimanded by my mom who says she "uses it to spy on me") Umm...mom...I gave you the URL...I'm pretty sure I'm aware that you are reading this...just sayin'.

I will do my best to update more often...Hope you all have a blessed day!

Checking In...

First of all...mom came home last Thursday! She's doing alright and feeling much better! Amen! Thank you so much for all of your prayers. It means more than you know...

And, thank you to all of you who said such sweet, kind, caring and supportive words about my last post. I usually don't open up on my blog like that, but I guess I just felt I had to get it out there. You all really lifted my spirits and I feel such love out there in Blogland (yes, it's a place...haha)

I'll update tomorrow on what has been going on over the past week...but, for now...I'm over at my parent's house...my dad is out of town....and mom and I are having a girls night!!! Chick flicks, wine and girl talk! Doesn't get much better than that! I love getting this time with my mom...

BIIIIIIG HUG to all of you....I never knew that I would make such wonderful friends through this blog! I love you!

I am a selfish person...

So...they finally did the CT scan on momma yesterday evening, but I don't know any of the results yet.

Because of being sick, I have not gone up to see momma at the hospital. She's been there almost 3 days now....But, I'm on antibiotics now and I know that I'm not contagious...so, it shouldn't be a problem now.

Here's my dilemma...I'm scared folks...I don't like her being sick. I try to block it out of my head and go to a happy place. I try to pretend that everything is ok and suppress any feelings of sadness, worry, fear...everything. I fill my days with anything and everything to keep myself busy. I smear a smile across my face, make plans with friends, self-medicate with chocolate (dark chocolate is good for you though, right?) I pray nonstop for God to heal her...but, I feel like I'm not being a good enough daughter. I should be there right now with my dad. He won't leave her side at the hospital...is most likely exhausted going from the house to hospital, hospital to house...My dad has his own health issues to worry about (that's a totally different post altogether) and I should be helping. But, I'm scared.

Friends...the thing that scares me more than anything...is that I will be a totally different person when one of my parents goes to Heaven.

Totally. Different.

And, it scares me to think of who I will be...what changes I will make...if I'll lose friends because of my change. My parents are everything to me. Everything. What will I do without them? Who am I without them? I am nobody...nothing...they made me who I am. They have always supported me without fail, loved me unconditionally without question and been there for me every second of every day.

So I shouldn't be feeling this way. I shouldn't feel like I will disappear when they leave this world....but, I fear I will.

Am I crazy? Am I the only person that is terrified of this? And, when I use the word "terrified", I mean it with every fiber of my being. Terrified

I'm trembling now as I'm typing this....holding back tears of panic. This is why I don't think about it...I just don't think I'm strong enough to handle it.

Who am I without my mommily and papa bear?

Do you WANT to get slapped?

Do you know what bothers me more than being in a bad mood?

When someone asks me "What's wrong?" (and then, they sort of pout their lips out in a childish way)

{cue the theme music to "Jaws" because it's about to get ugly}

If I'm in a crappy mood, asking me what is wrong will NOT...I repeat NOT, help the situation! It only irritates me even more that you're asking me! Because, for the most part, I usually have no idea why I'm in the bad mood to begin with...

It could be hormones...it could be that someone looked at me the wrong way last week...it could be something I ate the night before...I DON'T KNOW!!

That's the point! It bothers ME when I'm in a bad mood, so for someone else to blatantly point it out turns me into a vicious monster not nice person!

Ok...that's my rant for today...{deep breath}

I actually feel better.....

There IS power in it.....

I'm speaking of prayer, folks.....simple, beautiful prayer.

Dear, sweet, caring, beautiful, genuine, downright AMAZING Shirley (aka, my momma) is heading to the hospital again as we speak...not sure exactly what's going on, but you know what I would absolutely adore?

Your wonderful and powerful prayers for her....please.

It works....

Thank you...

Dance, Dance, Dance, Dance, Dancin' Machine...

Friday night's "Girls Night Out" was a SUCCESS!!! (sorry for the grainy pics...took them with my phone)

Although...technically...we had some guy friends also meet us out...

Bel and Me...



Let's just let the pictures speak for themselves....(mostly because after a bottle of sake at dinner, things might have gotten a little blurry...)






My purdy girlies...



It was definitely a fun fun night! There was lots of dancing...lots of flirting...and I plead the fifth on the rest! (I kid, I kid...)


Then, Saturday night...my girl Alex and I went out to help a buddy celebrate his birthday...(we eventually ended up at the same place from the previous night and more dancing ensued...hehe)

Oh Yes, It's Ladies Night....

and the feeling's right....Oh yes, it's Ladies Night, oh what a night...
{in a deep voice} Ohh, what a night....

That's right, Dallas! WATCH OUT! Because my Purdy Posse will be out on the town tonight!




We'll be starting our evening with some delish sushi here...



Maybe hanging out in their lounge area for a cocktail...



before we dive into their wonderful assortment of sushi goodness...




Then...we'll be heading down the street to this fun little establishment...



Where we will be doing a LOT of this...




And, maybe I'll end the evening with this classic performance...




You never know what could happen with Girls Night Out..........

'Cause I'm Cool Like Dat....I'm Cool like dat...

{Ring, ring, ring}

Me: Hey mom...what's up? (we have caller ID...I'm not a psychic)

Mom: Hey sugar...do you want to go to the Mavs game tonight? Seats right behind the players and VIP lounge tickets?

Me: Umm..let me think about this {no pause} HECK YES!

It just so happens that I had already made plans to have dinner with this guy, so I call him up and ask if he would rather go to a game....(he's a dude...it's basketball...what do you think he's going to say?)

We had amazing seats just a few rows back from the floor...



Plus, we had VIP Lounge tickets to this super special lounge that I've never even heard of...we had to walk down on the floor, go through the tunnel and down a hallway. They had a yummy buffet set up with all kinds of delicious food and a bartender serving up the drinky poos. Swanky I tell you...swanky...



(please pay no attention to how puffy and pale I look here....ick)


We had a great time and the Mavs won! And, the dude and I really hit it off...super sweet, witty and fun...and he's around 6'7! Even with my 4 inch heels, the guy still has a foot on me! LOL!

Grammys-n-Jammies

This past Sunday, I decided to have a little get-together to watch the Grammys AND to celebrate my 21-day fast being over!!! I can't believe I made it that long...I really surprised myself!

So, I had a cheese plate, made hummus, meatballs and yummy iced sugar cookies (in the shapes of guitars and music notes) for my "Grammys-n-Jammies" party! I had two friends come over and we had a grand ole time.

Me and Alex in our jammies...